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selamat menyambut hari kemerdekaan negara yang ke-53 .

"Teenage Dream" - Official Lyric Video

maaf & memaafkan

     bukan senang seseorang yg berego tinggi seperti aku nee nak mintak maaf dr org..tapi bukanlah bermaksud aku tak akan minta maaf langsung dr sesiapa pown..mestilah pernah,,lagi2 waktu raya..bila semua pakat beratuq nk salam dgn parents,nenek & atuk,pakcik & makcik..time tuh,,runtuh segala ego sebab nk dpt keredhaan bila daa kumpul dosa2 secara sengaja ataw tak sepanjang tahun tu..

     aku bukan laa nk bercakap pasal raya,,dan skrg sudaa keluar dr topik tersebut cuma berbalik pd maaf & memaafkan..aku rasa kadang2 bila aku mintak maaf ataw maafkan org..aku tak dpt rasa yg aku betul2 daa maafkan kesalahan tersebut. kenapa agaknya aku tak dapat nk ikhlas kan hati aku..?? mungkin korg pown pernah merasai pengalaman tersebut.. Kdg2 aku rasa hipokrit! rasa bersalah & bertindak tak sepatutnya dgn memaafkan tanpa keikhlasan..apa yg patut aku lakukan..smpai kadang aku rasa marah secara tiba2 bila aku teringat evrythng yg berkaitan dgn perselisihan faham tu dan buat aku rasa nak marah & menghamun lagi..


     ouhh man! aku tanak,,everythng end up bad again..aku cuma tanak bergaduh..sepatutnya aku bg masa pada diri aku bukan terburu2 nk maafkan ataw mintak maaf tak tentu pasal..alih2 aku sendiri yg bengang sendiri bila nmpk die sendiri mcm tak ikhlas nk mintak maaf ataw memaffkan aku..penat nk bergaduh,,buat aku rasa bersalah setiap masa..hate that feeling..hewmm ~

OMG! syuha's back..

yupp!

im back..

i've been away from bloggin myself for couple of month..

guess got lott to talk,to share..

yeahh,,

life is aint easy..

people u love come and go..

but im not..

im not leaving,,i am where i am now,,just here..

u can share anythng wif me,,

people who noe me better noe how "oke" i am wif any situation..

but when it comes to me,,myself..

ouhh,,

i feel like evrythng around is pullin me down

and its makin me; Syuha hard to handle it..

lalala~

disposible love

Do u still remember
once u told me that u only gonna break my heart
u'r living a street life
it's so hard and so tough
but still u need my strength
to hold your weakness
makes u wanna drop tears
it touch every part of our veins,,

Here u said;
u miss me
u need me
u love me
u want my hug
u want my smile
u miss my stare
u miss my stupidity
u miss my madness
u need my weakness
and so do my strength
If we could just pause the moment
There's a feast at the town
people around and lights are shining brightly
night cold wind touch our skin
Listening to our song
feeling like a fantasy
it just between me and u
and get into a bit drama

Here u said;
u miss me
u need me
u love me
u want my hug
u want my smile
u miss my stare
u miss my stupidity
u miss my madness
u need my weakness
and so do my strength

Should i trust u or shouldnt i..
all the memories are flashing back.
so tight to let u in,
so bad to let u see what is inside of me..
too bad to get u warm in my arm,
too shy to cry..
and it is too hard to say goodbye

But heyy..
Im just like a teddy bear for u..
u can love me,
u can hug me or kiss me
But then,
when u get a better teddy
u can just ignore me
Put me away
and soon forget me
when u don't ever put hop e on us..




do i wrote it..ouh yea i do,,thanx to u~




xoxo;


syuhasazali